9 Weeks Post Surgery

I am still working on fighting my instinct to drink something when I feel overfull, like I need to wash it down.  I have learned that with my  new stomach, it just makes the feeling worse and can even cause me to regurgitate.

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I started going to the gym this week, although it was a pretty slow start at least it got me moving!  Also, I started on my Thanksgiving prep work.  I was worried that all the cooking, especially dessert stuff, would be hard for me with my food limitations but I actually did not have much trouble not eating the stuff I was preparing – even the cheesecake with strawberry sauce!


Wednesday, November 15th, 2017

Weight: 205.0 lbs

Food:

  • Applesauce
  • Tea
  • Broccoli cheese soup
  • Saltines
  • Milk
  • Steak
  • Mashed cauliflower

Okay, my blood pressure is way too high.  I wish I could blame it all on stress but I am not sure that is really valid.  I do wonder though if my meter is reading it high, since it was lower at the doctor’s office last week.  I have a psychiatrist appointment this afternoon, maybe they will take my blood pressure there and I can compare.

My psychiatrist seems to be perfectly satisfied with my blood pressure being a little high like it has been.  This is probably helped by the fact that it was a little lower when they took it there.  I wonder if there is something that is the opposite of “white coat hypertension” that makes me have higher blood pressure readings at home.  Occam’s razor would suggest that the simpler explanation (my blood pressure machine is flawed) is more likely to be true.  It is a nice one though, my father did research before buying it for me.

Anyway, the doctor also thinks that this blog is a great idea, including posting underwear photos of myself, something that took my therapist by surprise when I mentioned it to her.  It could be because he doesn’t know me as well.  I see him maybe twice a year for a check in and drug refills while I see my therapist every other week, so she is aware of my self-consciousness and body issues.  Still, I could not help but feel encouraged by his response, which helped make up for the embarrassment / judgement I felt at hers a few weeks ago.  She probably was not actually judgmental – I tend to read that sort of thing into responses when it isn’t there but I felt it, just the same.

I am working hard to convince myself that I will not regret posting in this manner; even the photographs.  Well, only the photographs, really.  I have no cause to regret listing foods I have eaten.  I do have some relatives who, if they managed to find this blog, might be fairly appalled at my meat intake.  I am not too worried about it though.  I need to consume protein and beef, in particular, also has iron.  I have not historically eaten a lot of meat but I have no particular moral or religious objection to it so I have upped my intake recently (percentage-wise, at least).  I guess my medications could be considered confidential but they are relevant to my journey – even seemingly unrelated ones like my antidepressant (speaking of which, I am starting a lower dose of that tomorrow).

Medications:

  • 500 mg Metformin x 1 ½
  • 28 mg Iron x 1

Blood Pressure: 127/97 (6 am)

  • 118/89 (3 pm at the doctor’s office)

Thursday, November 16th, 2017

Weight: 205.2 lbsgym 9 wks

Food:

  • Tea
  • Quinoa with pesto
  • Chocolate protein shake
  • Peanut butter
  • Milk
  • Steak
  • Mashed cauliflower

My weight went up today but just barely.  Also, I was wearing leggings on the scale, which I usually do not, so I will call this a wash.

Starting today, I am decreasing my Sertraline (anti-depressant) from 150 mg per day to 100 mg per day (1 ½ pills to 1 pill, which is easier anyway).  I will re-evaluate with my doctor in 2 months about the effects of this change – ideally there will not be any.

I went to the gym today.  This is not the first time but I don’t recall the day I went before and I realize I need to start recording it.  I did not last very long – it has been a while since I worked out, but it is a start.

Medications:

  • 500 mg Metformin x 1 ½
  • 28 mg Iron x 1

Blood Pressure: 124/92 (9 pm)

Exercise: 15 minutes elliptical


Friday, November 17th, 2017

Weight: 205.2 lbs

Food:

  • Tea
  • Melba toast
  • Cream cheese
  • Applesauce
  • String cheese
  • Yogurt
  • Tofu burrito bowl – no beans

I am filling this out a couple of days after the fact and I feel like I ate something else on Friday but I cannot be sure.

I stopped both before and after visiting my grandma to buy some ingredients for Thanksgiving dinner.  I only got a ten pound turkey (hormone free per my grandma’s preference) but that should be enough for nine people, especially since five of them are apparently leaving on Friday although I don’t know what time yet.

Medications:

  • 500 mg Metformin x 1 ½
  • 28 mg Iron x 1

Saturday, November 18th, 2017

Weight: 205.2 lbs

Food:

  • Yogurt
  • Juice
  • Milk
  • Pear
  • Fried rice
  • Egg roll
  • Teriyaki beef & mushrooms

I ate too much today for dinner.  The egg roll was so delicious that I just kept eating it – mistake!  After a while it did settle though, so I guess it was not such a terrible lapse.

I am still working on fighting my instinct to drink something when I feel overfull, like I need to wash it down.  I have learned that with my  new stomach, it just makes the feeling worse and can even cause me to regurgitate.  I had a few instances of spitting up a bit in my trash can at work and feeling like I had an eating disorder like bulimia even though I was not purging on purpose although I did fell significantly better afterward.

Medications:

  • 500 mg Metformin x 1 ½
  • 28 mg Iron x 1

Blood Pressure: 117/88 (12 pm)


Sunday, November 19th, 2017

Weight: 204.2 lbs

Food:

  • Greek omelette
  • Hash browns
  • String cheese
  • Juice
  • Teriyaki beef & mushroom
  • Fried rice
  • Roasted cauliflower
  • Pears

I had big plans to start cooking for Thanksgiving this afternoon but instead I realized my eggs were expired and instead of going to the store, I took a nap.  Then, when I woke up in the evening, I remembered I needed to cook something for the potluck at work tomorrow and threw some cauliflower in the oven (with lots of garlic, of course).

I did not weigh myself in the morning and the scale said 206.4 lbs when I tried it mid-afternoon.  By the time I actually went to bed though, it was 204.2, so I decided to go with that because it better suits the trend.  I did not make my final decision about that until Monday morning, though.  (This feels a little bit like cheating on my statistics but they would not be accurate anyway using the midday weight

I did make a schedule for my Thanksgiving cooking though, I hope I can stick to it.

  • Turkey – prep Wednesday night, start cooking Thursday morning
  • Gravy – make on Thursday after the turkey comes out of the oven
  • Stuffing – make Wednesday night, stuff the turkey and put in dish, bake Thursday
  • Creamed spinach – make Thursday while the turkey is cooking
  • Bean salad – make Monday night, add green onions on Thursday
  • Mashed potatoes – make Tuesday night, reheat in oven on Thursday
  • Pumpkin pie – make Monday night
  • Apple pie – make Wednesday night
  • Cheesecake & strawberry sauce – make Tuesday night

My grandma is making squash, I think with apples and my aunt is making cranberry sauce and possibly dinner rolls (or we will buy them).

I found my other bottle of test strips for my glucometer but since it was right after I ate a cup of diced pears, I decided to wait until Monday to actually use any of them.

Medications:

  • 500 mg Metformin x 1 ½
  • 28 mg Iron x 1

Monday, November 20th, 2017

Weight: 203.2 lbspotluck

Food:

  • Tea
  • Yogurt
  • Turkey
  • Various Thanksgiving-y sides
  • Dessert – custard or something in a cookie cup
  • Applesauce
  • Tea
  • Teryiaki beef & mushroom
  • Fried rice

I am surprised that my weight went down, especially as much as it did.  I hope I am being over cautious in assuming that it is a fluke of some sort and the number will jump back up tomorrow.

Today, we had a potluck at work.  I had a small amount of a few things and do not feel overfull although I do really want a nap, that could be more related to my poor sleeping last night.  Most of my choices were pretty good although I did eat a cookie cup with a delicious filling. Fortunately (or possibly unfortunately given my sweet tooth) I have not had any problems with dumping syndrome since my surgery.

As a small personal victory – despite there being a lot of leftover baked goods, I (sort of) satisfied my sweet tooth by eating applesauce instead of grabbing another treat this afternoon.  I do like applesauce, it is just not quite as delicious as apple pie!

In sort-of unrelated news, I wore my new burgundy dress and awesome burgundy boots to work today (with black leggings, of course, the dress is pretty short for my comfort plus it is almost wintertime) and got a lot of compliments, not just on how well I match but also on how much weight I am losing. That is encouraging, especially when I am eating a tray with tiny portions of food while surrounded by people gorging on a Thanksgiving feast.

I know that I should go to the gym after work today but I have cooking to do!  Also, I need to go by my grandma’s house in order to visit with my family who just arrived and pick up some herbs from her garden.

Medications:

  • 500 mg Metformin x 1 ½
  • 28 mg Iron x 1

Blood Pressure: 132/96 (6 am)

Blood Sugar: 87 (6 am)


Tuesday, November 21st, 2017

Weight: 203.8 lbs9 weeks post

Food:

  • Melba toast
  • Cream cheese
  • Chocolate protein shake
  • Tofu burrito bowl with no rice
  • Fried rice
  • Teriyaki beef & mushroom
  • Juice

I am not surprised that my weight went back up, I feel like it fell too fast the last couple of days.  I wasn’t complaining or anything, of course, but I cannot be too upset about the small jump back up today.

I successfully made pumpkin pie and bean salad last night, so I am on schedule for Thanksgiving, so far.  Also, I have sage and thyme in my car waiting to go into the stuffing.  I poured a tiny amount of the pumpkin pie filling into a glass dish so that I can eat it without crust later.

I am starting to not believe my blood pressure machine.  It is always lower at the doctor’s office.  I have an appointment on Saturday and if they tell me it is high there, I will worry but not until that point.

I made mashed potatoes and cheesecake tonight although only the former turned out as planned.  I have not made cheesecake in over a decade and I have never used a pre-made graham cracker crust in a pie tin.  I guess I overfilled it so it puffed up and the top cracked.  Well, hopefully it will taste the same.  I also made a strawberry sauce to go with it.  I did not have the right size pot clean and I did not want to stand over it so I cut up the frozen strawberries (slightly) and threw them in my Instant Pot with sugar, lime zest, and lime juice.  The tiny taste I had seemed pretty good.  It was quite tart but with enough sweetness to balance it.

Medications:

  • 500 mg Metformin x 1 ½
  • 28 mg Iron x 1

Blood Pressure: 136/98 (6 am)

Blood Sugar: 107 (6 am)

 

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